I am one hell of a bad Buddhist! There — I said it. Often I hear, “WELL THAT’S NOT VERY BUDDHIST OF YOU,” which made me wonder about what it takes to be a good little Buddhist and why people think I break the rules?
So what makes me a bad Buddhist? Read on:
I GET ANNOYED.
Yes, things annoy me no matter how much I try to meditate on it. For instance, traffic, waiting on long lines, and dirty dishes annoy me. I’ve never met anyone who became enlightened doing a pile of dishes, but hey, you never know!
I GET ANGRY.
Oh yeah. I get angry when I hold the door for someone and they walk out without even acknowledging me. I get angry when I see injustice in the media. Buddhism teaches that anger is an addiction and perhaps I need rehab.
I GET JEALOUS.
I’m sometimes jealous or envious of people when I start to compare myself to others. I’m so grateful for my life, but I get jealous of those who will never know some of things I’ve endured. Buddhism and life in general teaches us to value our own lives. Trust me, I do.
I GET ATTACHED.
The number one biggie in Buddhism is non-attachment. Well let me be the first to say I am attached. I am attached to my family and sometimes I get attached to things. It’s something I have to work on, but I’m not sure true non-attachment can ever be attained.
I THROW MY CLOTHES ON MY MEDITATION PILLOW.
Meditation every day is not easy for me. I love watching Golden Girls (yeah, I know), reading a book, or doing my thing on social media. Frankly, I can make so many excuses, but in the end — I know it’s me.
This makes up who I am and who knows maybe I will spruce up my inner well being. Self-improvement is something we do everyday of our lives. Being a Buddhist doesn’t equate with being perfect. I am human. I feel emotions and have to deal with them like every single person here.
So I leave you with this last point: Don’t worry! You can’t be a perfect [insert your label here] all of the time! WE ARE FREAKING HUMAN BEINGS! All you can do is be the best version of yourself each day.
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Love, peace, and healing, xo!